DESIRE

Eyewear HL-02 by INSOMNIA CHILDREN
Photography & Art Direction WANG YU WEN
Styling WANG YU WEN, WU YUNSHAN
Editors & Studio Assistants GOI JIN HONG, FOO WEN LING, YANG CHAI WON
Talent WU YUN SHAN

“Growing up as an Asian child, I’ve always felt the weight of my parents’ expectations.”

It’s a weight that sometimes feels unbearable, like it’s crushing my own dreams before they even have a chance to breathe.

My mom, who’s deeply traditional, has a very clear idea of what my life should look like.

In her eyes, it’s a familiar, comfortable path—going to a local university, landing a stable 9-to-5 job, marrying someone from Singapore, and settling down to live a conventional life.

She’s only ever wanted to protect me from the risks and uncertainties she sees in the world, but it feels like her dreams have become this rigid plan that I have to fulfil.

I understand where she’s coming from but her plans for me are suffocating.

“It feels like a tug-of-war between who I am and who I’m supposed to be—between the life I want to live and the life my mother envisions for me.”

“I’m still standing on the edge, caught between the weight of her dreams and the pull of my own.”

I feel guilty that I am disappointing her, that I’m somehow letting her down. But I can’t help but ask myself: At what point do I get to live my own life? When will it be okay to make choices that feel right to me, even if they don’t align with what she wants?

I often wonder if she’ll ever understand, if she can look at me, not with disappointment or worry, but with pride, even if my choices don’t fit into the expectations she’s had for me.

Or maybe the real question is whether I’ll ever have the courage to fully own my own life, even if it means stepping away from her dreams for me—for now.

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